For When You Don't Feel Good Enough

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

We all have those days where it feels like nothing has gone right. You woke up to find a huge zit on your face. Your hair was really frizzy and wouldn't cooperate. Your pants looked a bit tighter than usual.

Everything's going downhill, and you haven't even gotten dressed or eaten breakfast yet. 

I had one of those days today. I woke up from a bad night's sleep ready to make the most of this new day. I had bags under my eyes, but I was optimistic about what was to come. I put on my favorite outfit and looked in the mirror. And that's when my excitement immediately vanished. 

Have these leggings always made my thighs look huge? Why does my favorite sweater make me look like I've gained 30 pounds? Does my face always look this round? Do I really look this bad all the time?

So there I sat. It was a beautiful fall morning yet I was inside, contemplating how someone so fat and ugly could possibly face the world. On a scale of 1-100, my self confidence was at a solid -38. 

So what do you do on days when loving yourself seems terribly impossible? Personally, I googled what to do. I ended up on Oprah's website and tried doing the whole stand in front of the mirror and be thankful for each body part thing like she suggested. Long story short, every time I tried to think about how thankful I was for my legs because they enabled me to go places, a little voice in the back of my head would remind me that they looked like tree trunks today. Cool.

I was at my wits ends, so I did what I know best. I called my mom. Because sometimes you need to put on an oversized sweater, a comfortable pair of leggings and go for a long walk while talking to your mom.

It's now 9 PM, and I somehow made it through the day. It seems silly to feel proud for surviving a normal Wednesday, but I'm feeling very relieved and brave. I still don't feel like I'm beautiful right now, but I think loving yourself is so hard. It's hard to love yourself when your makeup is perfectly done and your hair is beautifully styled and your outfit is flawless. It's hard to love yourself on the good days when you're feeling confident and happy. 

It's hard to love yourself when everything's going right, so it's especially hard to love yourself on the days when nothing is going right.

It's okay to have those days where you're not okay. It's okay to feel down. But it's not okay to ever think you're not good enough. I wish no one ever had to go through those days where astrophysics seems easier than loving yourself, but sometimes you just don't feel your best. Some days you have to wake up and eat like you love yourself, move like you love yourself, act like you love yourself. Even if you really don't love yourself at all at the moment. 

Everyone has those days where they feel too fat, too ugly, not good enough. Everyone has those days when they just can't seem to love themselves. But don't let it stop you. Beyonce doesn't spend her days worrying about her thighs touching or possible imperfections. She's got stuff to do. And so do you. So go conquer the world (even if conquering the world means just making it through another day). 

"You got this."

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  1. I am having a few of those kind of days and you are right! Moms always make it better! Have a great REST of your week!
    I am following you and you can follow me back at Annster's Domain if you want.
    Take care of you!

  2. Totally have those days!! I really like this guide when I'm in that place These practical tips have helped me so much! -- Katie

  3. Heck yes. You are a beautiful person, inside and out. Seriously. And you can GSD (get sh!t done) like a boss. And even on days when you're chillin' on the couch, you're still fabulous, because you need rest in order to GSD.


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